problemas with the "black" male.

I ruined my may finale by blogging this blog but I don't care...I think I need to get something off my chest. This blog has to do with the "black male". BUT DAVEYY...WHAT IS THE BLACK MALE? Let me tell you.

What is a black male? A black male is the type of guy I go for. He's got the really nice eyes, nice body, nice personality and is either "black" himself or has "black hair". Or in general, I hang around a lot of black males, males who are black and males who have black hair. BUT DAVEYY...WHY ARE YOU BLOGGING ABOUT THIS? Let me tell you.

Lately, there's been this one black male that's been kind of...hurting me in a sense. This person is supposed to be my friend, but every time he shuts me out or does something out-of-the-ordinary, I become very annoyed with this person. And lately, I've been experiencing a lot of "signs". There's been the three signs in particular. One is the "Top Syndrome". You know how I always use weird terminology, here's another to add to the list. Top Syndrome is a sadness, anger, confusion or some sort of negative emotion when looking at a friend's social network and seeing that you are "low" on their "top friends". I've been experiencing Top Syndrome for a while now and its starting to really hurt :/ If we're supposed to be such good friends, why am I so low, you know? Evidence number 2. I am subscribed to LoveBScott, an openly gay, and might I add funny and charismatic, Youtuber who posted a video recently about "Top 5 Friends Who You Should Give The Heave-Ho". It took me a while to figure out, through context clues, what Heave-Ho was, but when I did, I realized that this particular black male has been at least 2, if not 3, of the top five friends who i should give the heave-ho. He stated that you should not be scared of your friend. And that's what I am scared. I'm scared to lose this black male. But then he stated that if I'm scared of him already, what's the point of having him in my life? It's all so controversial. Point number 3. I ALWAYS check Yahoo! because it has the 4 main news articles and sometimes they're interesting to check out. The most recent one I clicked was the "Top 8 kinds of friends you should let go", and let me tell you...my black male friend had to be at least 4 of them. It's scary because for everyone I compared to him, I could also compare myself to. We are so alike, that it's not even funny. I'm torn, yo. I don't know what I should do, but no matter what happens, I know that I'll always remember the good he's done to me, because that's who I am; a person who sees the good in people.

And lastly, I have one more problem with the black male. This is more of like a fantasy. I keep thinking...my senior year...I'll be walking and then about to great my friends and then all of a sudden, this CUTE black male will come out of nowhere. This black male will be probably as tall as me, Caucasian, BLACK HAIR, and hopefully gay and not feminine. If this was to happen, I would die and thank God. FORREALZ. lmfao. So yeah...that's my little blog. I'll see you soon. <3