being completely thrown off balance.

DISCLAIMER: I don't mean to put anyone's business out. I'm making it vague and will not disclose the name. I just have to write this blog...

I am completely thrown off today.

The girl who I thought was the ugliest person inside and out was actually very gorgeous and pretty, and not ugly at all. She's nice, sweet, and overall a person who isn't capable of doing what I posted in a couple blogs ago. anyone is capable of anything.

The girl who I thought would never do something stupid, actually did something stupid. She is allegedly pregnant at 14 and fucked in the bed of my other friend, and got blood on her mattress. You're only as dirty as the things you do.

The girl who I thought was the strongest person in the world...crumbled. Even a superhero needs help sometimes.


The boy who I thought was really cute, was a gay guy that roleplayed with me on my forum and had a picture on this forum. I tracked the picture back to its previous location and I find out that its just a fake picture. It's actually an emo kid who is in an album called "hot emo guys". On the internet, anyone can be anyone.

The boy who I thought would always love having me as a friend blew up at me and detests my other friend. If you stop telling lies about me, I'll stop telling truths about you.

The boy who I thought would be disgusted with me turned out to care a lot about me and brought up a great point about the previous "boy". Listening to both parts of a story can help make the story's two parts come together.

And there's more stuff! Like...

a girl being outcasted because she inadvertently invited her friend's ex-boyfriend to her get-together. Sloppy seconds...

a girl whose afraid to say to the person that disrespected her what she really feels because she's afraid of losing her. Never fear losing anybody but yourself.

a boy who never listens to the person who guides him so well and had to be mentally bitch slapped in the face to get the realization of the animosities in his life. Learn from your past mistakes...

If it's killing you to know who any of these people are, I'll at least tell you one of them. The last boy mentioned in this blog, is me. I've been blinded by the fact that I care too much and is able to see the good in everybody that I actually also see the bad and care too much for that too. A wise person told me that earlier today. I don't know what I'm gonna do. My balance is thrown off whack and to top it off, my sister just found out that I'm gay and can't be settled easy by it. WTF? She found out like in October that I'm bi. Why would it matter is I'm gay? She told me that her perspective has changed. And I'll conform to this quote...FML. Fuck my life. ATM. At the moment.