Wishing I Could Turn Back Time.

Sex is human nature.

Everyone knows this.

Regardless, if you don't have it or haven't had it, the hormones in your body start to kick rapidly and then begin to release and escape in the form of erections and French kisses. Am I right?
Anyways, it can be maturely say that I, a sixteen year old teenage boy wants to have sex, badly.
I coin the term "sexually miserable" although I'm clearly sexually frustrated.

I wish I could have it...so bad. But, because of the past, I can't have it. I feel remorse and regret for what happened, and I feel like shit. You don't know what it feels like to feel impure after your purity has been taken away. Don't jump to conclusions nor think less of me, but I'm taking care of myself. I know that soon, I can have it, but it might be too late to have it with the person I infatuate the most.

Lust has overcome me. I'm falling heads over heels for someone I shouldn't and it hurts because if I feel for this person, then I'll be attached to them, and I don't wanna ruin friendship.
I've done memorable things with this person. I love the taste of their lips and I love the taste of their "nether region". I just wish that my heart didn't break every time he smiles because when he smiles it makes me happy and I know that, at any moment, that happiness can go away.

And I think because I hurt him today, it has. :[

My only wish is to redo the past. Undo time and live life happily. But as of right now, I can't. I need clarity and a friend, and right now, I don't have that.